I think I’m going through depression. it finally hit me and I’m trying my best to be happy but its not working anymore. I have no one to talk to about this.

I’m not happy. I don’t like most of the things you say and do. I don’t say anything because you’ll say, “then why are you still talking to me?”

I’m still talking to you because I love you. I actually love you and I care about you. that night we were together sealed the deal. I just think about it and I smile and I space out. even my coworkers ask me what am I thinking about so much and it’s you! I’m always thinking about you.

I want to end things before its too late. i know in the summer we’re not going to see each other as often. then in the fall you’re going off to college.

I’m just gonna be here alone :/

I haven’t talked to you all day and you call me and I missed your call but I called you right back. you sounded sleepy and I wanted to talk to you. you told me about your day and to be honest I hate when you tell me about your day because you’re always having fun. I envy you most of the times. I envy your friends he because they get to you everyday where as for me, I don’t see you that much. just a couple of hours here and there. right now you’re playing your Xbox and I’m here venting on tumblr. I’m just here laying in bed wanting to talk to you or at least just be on the phone listening to you play your Xbox.

I feel sad right now :( idk what to do. if I tell you all this you’re probably going to call me needy and possessive. you’re probably going to tell me that I complain too much.

idk anymore.. I think you’re taking too long to make your next move and you know what that is. it’s what I’ve been wanting. I don’t think that day will ever come. I just wish I could tell someone how I feel. no one really understands me when I try to tell them. they tell me I should tell you this or that but I’ve tried that. I get shut out by you. idk why I’m crying while typing this. it just sucks that I’m getting put through this again. I’ve been here in this position before and I can’t believe I’m letting another guy do this to me. I need time to myself. I think I’m going to end things with you..